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Tuesday, December 13, 2005

i went shopping today AGAIN.
i dont think i can live without it siah.
aha.
i bought a new panjabi suit.
it's greeen.
haha!
and i bought green and turquoise bangles.
fun!
i bought eyeliner.
as usual.
typical me.
well cant live without it
sorry i admit.
cause mine's finished already.

i dont feel like doin anymore hw siah.
i feel sick about doing it.
but do we have a choice?
aha.
maybe if i loved it and did it with passion,
i will finish it properly.

just like ash said.
will we die?
will we?
it's all in god's hands.
nooo.
i dont wanna die.
i wanna enjoy my life and all
and then i will be happy to die.

im still trying to smile.
where are you when i need you dear?
why issit so painful to say goodbye to you?
fuck. it really hurts.
i want to just leave so much.
but somethin's holding me back.
i dunt even noe why.
tsk.
now i say.
my biggest mistake was loving you.
i only have myself to blame.
i've fallen so badly and am hurt.
it'll take time to heal those wounds.
i hope soon.
goodbye dear.
i loved you.

8:10 PM