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Monday, October 31, 2005

there's hope.
just hope so.
i want so many things.
i'll have to work hard towards it.
i'll prove it to them
work harder cynn!
yeap.

mum wants me to give up on him now.
after ms leong talked to her
she actually thought i would commit suicide and told my mum to take care of me.
hehh.
and yeap.
she also thinks im depressed over other things.
she also thinks im some person who introduces friends like guys to other cedarians like the twins and others.
hmmm
i got no comments.
all i can say is that.
im not that kinda person.
i've got better things in the world to do than to introduce ppl to them
hehh.
ive got my life to handle.
why should i interfere in others'?
like hello.
ive got a conscience and a life too you noe.

firstly i really hate the idea of introducing guys to friends.
if friends arent that type, i dont mind.
but ppl like THEM?
first it will be friends.
then later it will be i love him, he loves me.
then later in the end when problems arise,
the blame comes to me.
wad the heck?
im not stupid to like not realise this kind stuff you noe.
and nair thinks im the head of the twins introducing them to guys?
wad in the world?
hmm.
and just for bein seen with her and her bf, i get the fucking blame that he was introduced to her through me?
ummm.
im really lost for words.
you know wad?
maybe i should leave.
i think that's the only way we can both learn and work hard.
let's just say when we are together, things arent goin to be the same anymore.
i wanna work hard and study.
i know your life is HIM.
you can ruin your life for all i care.
i aint gonna ruin mine cause of this kind of incidents.
no way.
im leaving you.
goodbye.
apparently you are PISSED with me over that phone call.
so yeah.
all the better for you and me.
just remain like that.
at least it will be a whole lot better.
thanks for all those times we had fun and all.
but it pays too much to be happy with you.
so i'll back off before you do.

6:23 PM