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Tuesday, May 31, 2005

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I’ve done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

11:14 AM

Monday, May 30, 2005

just came back from camp.
and in two days there's a another camp.
kinda lookin foward to that one actually.
(=
wells.

hopin that everythin will go out fine.

1:09 PM

Friday, May 27, 2005

you noe?
they always say that there's this point of time where you think you're so lonely and everybody hates you?
sigh.
im totally feelin it now.
a mixture of anger and tears.

5:22 PM

Monday, May 23, 2005

hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was
i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

i'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no one's there
say goodnight
don't be afraid calling me
calling me as you fade to black

7:50 PM

Sunday, May 22, 2005

pissed is a vulgarity?
oh my.
i understand why it is now.
=x

yeah. omer explained why he was so pissed.
i guess it's for our own good only. wells.
gees.
but yeah. i really dunno.
wahaha.
we did quite well for drama!
yeah!
lol.
couldnt help tearing when i came out.
siva was one of the judges!
aaaah
his cute curly hair.
haha.
but yeah i noe i exerted myself.
for once im proud of myself.
beams

ooh hols are comin.
camp!
(=
haha.
for once it's without my mother.
woots.
lol.
im gonna be all independant.
haha.
oh wells.
so much for the alone thing.
she told me she was gonna keep a watch out.
well mothers.
who can blame them?
one day im gonna become one.
and i guess im gonna be that way too.
oh my.
im being so practical.
=x

wells.
i decided to forget you.
i guess it's just much better that way.
it saves me tears.
sigh
it's painful.
all it takes is time.
soon to be it's just gonna be friendship.
i'll just leave you alone.
well ive never hogged to you or anythin.
it so isnt me.
wells. i guess it's over for now.
just take it in a way that it was all a pass-by thing.
haiys.
fake smiles.
time to hide it again, as usual.
it's not always so happening for every girl.
i guess im just the unlucky one too.
maybe i should just never fall in love.
it's just too painful.
yeah it should be that way.
i wonder why it's always like that for some ppl.
but for others, they can choose the guys they want.
ponders
well...
i guess i'll just stick to my decision.
so be it.

9:54 PM

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

bitch.
omer's a bitch
i bloody fucking one.
asshole.
bastard.
argh.
cant take it
so bloody pissed with him.
scoldin us for the smallest shit we do.
and he's takin over us!
arghh
so dead.

hehhh
cross country tmr.
gees.
dunno how im gonna survive!
aaaah
haha

and drama!!!
we're improvin!
haha hope to do better!
loool.

my marks SUCK like nobody's business
and i really mean it.
not like some people who say they suck when they only got a b3 or somethin.
hehh.
sigh.
dead again.
wished i just died.
man living is a chore.

9:28 PM

Thursday, May 05, 2005

didnt go to school today
grr
i missed chem and unseen test.
mann.
sickk.
ha.
im bored.

still bored.

8:19 PM

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

it's been some time since i updated.
heh.
life's kinda back to normal again.
mum's cooled now.
gotta admit it was miserable some time b4.
(= it's all good now.

life's uhh. interesting.
it aint that bad actually.
maybe except for some ups and downs
aah
everyone goes through that.
damn.
why is the freakin weather so hot?
it's like as inf the world is gonna explode or somethin.
hehh.
argh
God, please make it cooler.
i cant stand it.

was sucking up to wmc today for a math.
ha.
im gonna make everyone proud by doing her homework
the worst thing is,
i havent started.
wow.
i dunt even noe if i will be able to do it.
hehh.
but yeah
im gonna try.
im so sick
so sick of failing.
i wanna at least get a pass.
and i'll do a victory dance around school.

and yeah loy is pissed.
over the physics test thingy.
grrr.
worried sick.
cause i myself looked around.
hehh.
oh no.
gees.
she said she will talk to the suspects.
suspects?
interesting.
and she wants to change the sitting arrangement again.
argh.
i like where i sat.
she ruined it the first time.
now i like the new place that im sitting at.
and she's gonna ruin it again for me.
sigh.
so much for sittin happily.
growls.

ive tried so hard.
im too tired already.
tryin so hard.
sighs.
im just going to leave things as they are.
we'll see wad happens.

i watched chandramuki.
heh i actually liked it.
watched it twice.
not the actor or anythin
but the acting.
and jothika did do a good job for a possesed woman.
her eyes.
wow.
haha.
(=

8:13 PM

Reach my prismic soul.

cynnthiaChitrah
11Jan`90
Temasek Polytechnic

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